The Life of the Unexpected Mother

Today for some reason I have been thinking a lot about being a mom. Last summer, motherhood was not on my to do list for at least three to five years. If you would have told me that I was going to be a mommy next year i would have laughed in your face. In fact when I did find out I did laugh (and then cried for weeks to come). I would see mommys and was not able to understand how they found any satisfaction. It was all just so overwhelming and depressing, followed by months of non-stop throwing up, mood swings, and a small persons head nesting in my ribcage. I just didn't see the bright side? And then I met my daughter.
Brandon brought her to me when i saw her for the first time, wrapped up in layers of blankets and all i could see is her round little face, big pink lips, and the most alert and yet peaceful eyes. The feeling has no words but I know that is what heaven will feel like. After experiencing two months of crying, poopy diapers, sleepless nights, and never EVER thinking about yourself, EVER, i finally know what happiness is. I could think of a million things that I would love to do on a daily basis that Irelyn makes absolutely impossible (read a book, go on a shopping spree, have some alone time with hubby, travel the world), but when i look at that perfect chubby cheeks girl smiling at me every morning when i go and get her from her crib, I remember that nothing in life beats being a mom. It's amazing to know that with out question i would surrender my life for her, that when she cries my heart cries with her, and until she was here i didn't know how special being a mom is. I see how the world views motherhood; it's unsatisfying, unrewarding, you get fat, you get frumpy, and what about that man in your life? Well it's brought me more satisfaction then anything i have ever done, I did get fat and i am frumpy but it was so worth it. That's what weight watchers is for. As for the man in my life, the few moments we get together are just that much more special. And there is no one in the world i would rather battle through parenthood then with my husband, and there is no one in the world that makes a better daddy.
Today i am just grateful to be a mom and a wife. A year ago i would not have picked things to end up like this but today i would not trade places with anyone.